Showing posts with label Loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Loss. Show all posts

Friday, 9 December 2016

Gratitude For The Little Things That Don't Matter Anymore

At 26, I often feel hopeless and stagnant in life. The world has become so competitive that I often fail to look at my little achievements that I once dreamed off, things that were once on my bucket list and is now a reality. Things that are taken for granted. So here is my list from the past 5 years just to make me feel better:

1. Got a master's degree  in Social Work  when I was 21 (Mind you, so many people told me I was wasting my time pursuing that degree, I was young, stupid and impractical they said!)

2. Moved out of my parent's house and lived alone - in a forest, in a village, in a developed city and survived all of it. I learned the art of packing and moving in less than an hour, practiced minimalist living by literally living out of a box for 2 years.

3. Learned to make friends with strangers and learned to ask for help (I shed my pride). It is a big thing for me because I used to be someone who would rather starve than ask my own mother if there was anything to eat.

4. Managed to get a technological detox - those low budget phones and lack of connectivity helped in keeping me away from the non stop social media updates. The urge to publish every detail of my life online is now non existent. I quit FB for good 2 years and from that I learned those friends on FB don't exist once your off FB.

5. Got a job abroad - Hell, I only wished to travel abroad but fate had it that I got a job and ended up living abroad. The experience is enlightening - how it does not matter which part of India I was from - I am just 'Indian'. Speaking English without MTI is not good enough, etc. No one cares how developed your city is, you still belong to a 3rd world nation. :/

6. Watched Karma payback people who were unjust - at work, in my personal life. I consider myself blessed to be able to watch it within such a short span of time. How much I wished justice would be served and my wish was granted.

7. Managed to survive a break up. Someone who meant the world to me decided to move on at the most unexpected time. I never thought I would move forward in life, but looking back at the years now, I did go forward and I learned to accept and deal with the pain. Most importantly, I learned to be emotionally independent.

8. Reconciled with my past. The parental favoritism, the trauma from the childhood abuses, betrayal by friends and a lot more. I am at a level where I am able to understand the reasons why people behaved the way they did to me and I am not sour about it anymore. Life will take its course and karma will do the needful.

9. Kept a promise I almost broke. Learned to separate my emotions associated with the promise and stick to my word. That promise is a source of my joy today and hopefully forever :)

10. And those regular cheap thrills - my first investment, first camera, first flight ticket, first international trip, so many firsts with my own money. Who said social work does not pay you enough to live life well, its all about budgeting.

I have come a long way from the silly kid I used to be and still have a very long way to go before I willing accept adulthood as my reality. :D

Life is never about the big things. It's those little things that once mattered the most - the milestones that indicate you are getting ahead, one step at a time.


Thank you for taking the time to read these insignificant tidbits about my life. 

Sunday, 2 August 2015

Losing friends in your 20s

20s is the most happening time of anyone's life. It's that period when you achieve independence, grow out of your childishness and start exploring life on your own. It is also that dreaded time of life when you lose friends. There are various reasons why this happens but there are some standard reasons why one loses friends in the 20s.

1. Priorities change
Friends who loved to party all night would have turned into workaholics. Some want to study, some want to work, some want to travel, some want to get married. Whatever the reason, as we grow older every individual is bound to start making individual choices. We are no longer teenagers who give into peer pressure. We accept the fact that different people have different interests and its OK!




2. New relationships
New relationships are beautiful, be it a boy/girlfriend, spouse or even a child. The inevitable truth is that this new relationship is going to be your friends obsession and slowly you start fading into the background. You feel happy for your friend and fade out hoping that someday you find your own obsession.




3. People move out
Work, marriage, travel adventures, there are hundreds of reasons why people move out. Initially, we try hard and stay in touch, but slowly you begin to realise your schedules do not match. You have other things to cater to and slowly fall out of that beautiful relationship.




4. Money!
The biggest evil of all times, money! You or your friend makes money and the other does not. There comes a time of need and you graciously help your friend and that is often the last friendly conversation you will ever have.




5. Unhealthy competitions 
Human emotions are complex, friends will let you down for that promotion and hike. Friends might deceive you in the name of love - cheat on you with your partner. But they say all is fair in love and war. So you just let go and move on, or stay put and take revenge, either ways you have lost yet another friend.




But the good news is, beyond all these reasons you will still have few friends that sail through all the storms with you. They will be your friends for life especially in times of need. Also, the world is a large place, you are bound to make friends with new people as old ones fade out. After all it is human nature to want companionship. So cheers to friendship! The ones that last a few days, months or even years - every friend is special at some point of your life. Cherish the beautiful days spent together :)

A tribute to all those friends I lost over the years - I am grateful for the good times we spent together irrespective of the reason why we are not in touch. 

Happy Friendship Day!